Cloud Nine December

Wooohooo!!!!!!!

Here I go again..

I've been postponing to write on this blog well let's say due to my hectic schedule (this past holiday season has possibly been the busiest I have encountered :) ) and because I badly want to see how I reach the end of this month before I write like everything on this blog..

At first I'm thinking of writing December Bliss but after some occurrence, I believe that this month has been more than a bliss (serene joy), but it's for me like a cloud nine (a state of elation or great happiness / a state of extreme happiness). What makes me in extreme happiness??

CMUN 2-4 December 2011

Here's the story.. I started this month being in Makassar for 5 days with 4 friends. Even there, God still shows me that He's with me and never leave me alone (Hebrew 13:5).. What's going on in Makassar actually? well, I'm joining a competition namely CMUN (Celebes Model United Nations) and you know I had a PCS (pre-competition syndrome) a syndrome when your heart beat faster a.k.a tachycardia, sometimes nervous, sometimes dizzy, sometimes you feel blackout. I'm not in severe phase,btw. but I had that syndrome as well as my friends and maybe u too :) In this very time God strengthen me with His word until I (along w/ my partner Dave) end up gaining the Honorable Mention Awards at our first MUN experience. Soli Deo Gloria!!! Our coming to Mks not only brought us a MUN experience, knowledge, certificates and awards. It's also brought us friendship with Unhas delegates for HNMUN. I thank God that I know them all. They were very nice and friendly.

Besides, If I have to write like all God's goodness to me this month it will take 3 to 5 pages and I will get u just tired on scrolling. So let me make it short yet compact.

God has sent angels to cheer me up those days. He sent kak Ella to give me 11 coolest outfits a woman would desire this season. He helped me out during the oral test in Subject & Characters in Drama  when somehow Mrs. Ulaen acted very generous and nodding like she agreed with all the thing I'm saying.. Phew! He also helped me coaching debater from SMA St.Nikolaus Lokon (such an experience :D). I even got a job to be the MC of Prof.Lalamentik 'after service' (purnabakti) party. and it all went just well.. Umm.. I also thank God for the Youth GKMI Christmas Celebration.. as the secretary of the committee, I have to testify how great God has been for us. And the best part of it is when we come to visit and feed people with mental disorder at RSJ Ratumbuysang. I have no fear at all unlike some of my kakak2 rohani (no offense,sis :P). The facts are I even give my hands to them, take a picture with them and have an extremely hilarious conversation. I couldn’t imagine how I could be so brave with those people, who some are rated as ‘dangerous’ and were jailed. #God’sannointing

Here comes the reason why I'm postponing to write on this blog.. #visainterview (the very part I’m exciting to write about)

I feel like it's incomplete to write this post without knowing what will be the outcome of my visa interview on 27/12. Well, we just had a bad news on 19-20 dec that our friends @davemailoor @yeshq and @ndawanda's visa just been rejected and it's just shocking. They said the only problem is that they're not convinced with our funding whether we already have the money with us or not. It drives the rest of us worrying and hesitating whether we have to appear in the interview or not because we already by the ticket to Surabaya.. Unfortunately, when we intended to cancel our appointment with ConGen. We’re unable to do it at that very time (3 days before interview). That's why we hastily ask Pemkab Talaud to make us a letter of sponsorship thru Ein's help. We also tried to reach Rector to help us make a letter of sponsorship regarding the fund but he's not willing to (lesson: Do not lean on man! - Jeremiah 17:5) We then make a letter from our parents stating that they will be responsible with the whole trip and willing to pay for it with the attachment of their bank account. And with all that we've got; the complete documents and the plus plus things above, the four of us (Pam, Michelle, Eyn, and me) prayerfully fly to Surabaya.

The thing that I don't know is up until the day we fly to Sby, apparently Michelle and Pam still in the state of uncertainty and hesitation whether they will go for the interview or not as a result of their acquaintance's experience, advice and also the doubt within themselves. Nevertheless, they bring all the docs with them. Conversely, I think I’m the one who has faith on this interview cause God gave the impression in my heart and strengthen me with His words day in day out in my worship time to just go..“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you. Joshua 1:9”

Voila.. (26/12) We’re in Surabaya already. New problems come. Eynstein and Pamela didn’t bring their parents’ bank account, Eyn hasn’t even printed his DS-160 confirmation page, and he and Michelle didn’t bring their photograph along with them. Crap!! If you ask me whether I’m mad or disappoint with them, my answer is NO! I just know that there will be a heavenly way out J. Here’s the chronology, Michelle somehow could reach tante Suzanna (her aunt who lived with her in Brisbane) who treat us extraordinary lunch in her resto *Delisia Resto* and I think I have to mention that I just ate the most delicious Spaghetti Carbonara I’ve ever tasted (з´⌣`ε), provides us a wi-fi and printer to print Eyn’s remaining docs, lends us car for going to photo studio plus polo shirt for Michelle and taking us to Tunjungan Plaza thereafter. God is amazing, huh?!

It’s D+1 after Christmas but our minds were occupied with this visa thing so much.. After we synchronizing our answers while siphoning coffee and enjoying delly espresso brownies at Starbucks, we pray to God for the best to happen in the next day. I even share w/ Michelle the devotional book my Dad suddenly gave me and have been my reason to trust God this time. We read together John 15:16 and pray again. (Lesson: If you pray, means that you give the problem to God, so DO NOT worry anymore! Worry means you didn’t believe God could answer your prayer)

Shortly, (27/12) the judgment day come upon us.. we wake up early for the interview.. haven’t even get our brekkie but our hearts are at peace. We come with total submission to God knowing we cannot do anything without Him. As the result, our visa were approved (except Eyn’s). That day was magical!! That was the best Christmas gift I’ve ever had. Thank Christ Jesus for everything :’)

Have a dazzling holiday! :D

November Bliss

November is not over yet but still I sensate this month is one of my favorite month of this year.. God endowed me a lot things this November.

• First, Mom surprisingly bought new tabulet.
• Second, My Mom (again) has finally..fi..na..lly.. has mercy on me and agree to repair my new laptop :'D which I accidentally broke its screen (the repair cost is around 1.6 million, Phew!)

• Third, I somehow find some amount of money in my money deposit box meanwhile I'm in need of some money at that very time.. A heavenly help!

• Fourth, English Club 1st year anniversary (5/11) has celebrated excruciatingly prodigious!! The event was even publish in Radar Manado (local newspaper) isn't that amazing?? :D

• Fifth, me and other SREDS members has just participated in 6th IBA Governor Trophy English Debating Championship. This competition belongs for high school and we are the Adjudicators.. :D Tbh, I fervently enjoy this duty like..really!! I feel rejuvenated seeing high school students with their burning spirit to take home the trophy.. I love that so much! Moreover, I'm so proud seeing those potentials are found in High School in North Sulawesi..♥ I can't stop suggesting them to keep practice debating over and over even until college (hopefully they enroll at UNSRAT *finger-crossed).

• Sixth, our delegation's visa making which is almost done.. I feel like we're one step closer to Harvard, beibeh.. It's a wonderful feeling!(з´⌣`ε)  We also got a news that we can go to CMUN in Makassar this November. All funded by our university.. isn't that great??

I hv tons more things to write about bonuses I get by being Christ's follower.. Well, at the end of this post, I'd like to give all the praise to God for being the Great Author of my life story. Love HIM more..♥

I smell Christmas drawing near.. ^^
"December Bliss" To be continued..

He's been good

This is the song that I sang on my 17th birthday party..

I suddenly reminded of this song and want to make a post about this beautiful mellow yet touching song by Don Moen & Franky Sihombing.. :)

I have known the Father’s care for me

He’s been good, He’s been good

Through it all He’s always there for me

God’s been so good to me

::Through the storm, through the night

Come what may everything will be all right

I have known the Father’s care for me

God’s been good to me

::: Good so good, God’s been good to me

Good so good, God’s been good to me

This is what I believe, the song that we sing have as much power as our words..

It's like I'm declaring what I believe in my heart through what I sing..
And about this song, I believe that through the storm, through the night, God will always care for me and will be good to me as He always did.. ~♥

Home Syndrome

Hurray!! Ga ada kuliah hari ini.. Niatnya sih mau jalanin proposal HNMUN yang tinggal 118 days to go.. tapi mungkin besok baru semuanya (tmen2 delegasi) bisa.. So, today,  I can freely channel all my crazy ideas to whatever home-activities I could do.. haha and since yesterday I spend lots of time ngintip2in fashion-blogs of some Indonesian stunning ladies,. jadi pengen bereksperimen dgn hal yg sama.. hihi :P
Well, this is a post of my "fresh-from-the-oven"  pictures .. pemotretannya hari ini, ngeditnya hari ini dan post-nya juga hari ini.. and regarding the fact that my blog is not a fashion blog.. jadi gpp dong kalo masih imperfect.. harap dimaklumi.. :)

I read 320 books at 9. So can You!

        I recently found a new amazing kid that's been such an inspiration for kids in this age. She's Dayna Tan, the author of  "I read 320 books at 9. So can You!" which I read yesterday.. I feel so blown away with how this amazing kid could read such number of books and could write such a great book in her very young age.. She inspires me in the way Adora Svitak* did.. :) I read her book nonstop.. many new information I got from her book and I have made up my mind to make reading a fix part of my life and not to force myself to read books I don't feel like reading it so that my love for book will not decrease even a few.. haha..
 Any book you recommend me to read?? :D

* http://www.ted.com/talks/adora_svitak.html
Here's the link to get to know Dayna more..
http://daynatan.com/

"You don't need to be a "A" student to write a book."

"You don't need to be good at writing compositions in order to write a book."

"If you have passion in the topic of interest, you can write about it."

"Many children have the impression that a good writer must be good at writing composition in school."

"Ideally yes, but not necessary! Simply because, in writing composition, you are given very limited time to complete the composition. Whereas in writing a book, you can take as long as you want to improve the contents, the sentence structures, the grammar and the choice of words."

"So don't be discouraged, IT IS POSSIBLE even if you did not score "As" in your compositions."

"Everyone can write a book if they write according to their interest!"

"It took me nine months to complete the book, not ninety minutes!"

"Reflecting back, I think it was difficult at the beginning because...I told myself that it was difficult."

- Dayna Tan 
  

Secret Garden

 It's such a long time I haven't really interested with Korean Dramas.. until once upon a time (story telling mode: on) I saw this movie (Secret Garden) on TV.. Well, my Mom and my house maid are the one who love Korean Dramas and that seemed to be contagious.. I couldn't hide that I love this movie like A LOT!! I recently realized that I love to see boy and girl whose relationship was not so romantic from the beginning to the end.. This is a typical Korean drama I like to watch bcuz it's not too mushy or mawkish, however.. :)

For more of the synopsis.. check out http://kadorama-recaps.blogspot.com/2011/02/secret-garden-episode-20-final.html

 

 

A Chat With Jesus

Jesus: Hello. Did you call me?

Man: Called you? No. Who is this?

Jesus: This is Jesus. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Man: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

Jesus: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Man: Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.

Jesus: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Man: I understand. But I still can’t figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

Jesus: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Man: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

Jesus: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Man: why are we then constantly unhappy?

Jesus: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.

Man: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

Jesus: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Man: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

Jesus: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Man: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

Jesus: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Man: You mean to say such experience is useful?

Jesus: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Man: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems?

Jesus: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Man: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading.

Jesus: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Man: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

Jesus: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Man: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

Jesus: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Man: What surprises you about people?

Jesus: When they suffer they ask, “why me? When they prosper, they never ask “Why me” Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Man: Sometimes I ask, who I am, why am I here. I can’t get the answer.

Jesus: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Man: How can I get the best out of life?

Jesus: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Man: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

Jesus: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Man: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the day with a new sense of inspiration.

Jesus: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Man: Thank you so much.

Jesus: You are always welcome. Have a good day my friend.

"Always remember, God’s Word is the Word for YOU."

(via tumblr) http://500daysofzyrah.tumblr.com/post/11314531867/a-chat-with-jesus

Just because someone prefers to speak English most of the time DOESN’T MEAN that s/he is too western-centric (if that’s even a word) or that s/he can’t “love” Indonesia or that s/he has been getting rid of nationalism and been corrupted. Such retarded thought is so two thousand and freakin late. Another poor excuse to tolerate underdevelopment.

via tumblr (http://beyondly.tumblr.com/)

Our Family Wedding

      Curious with the title of this post??

haha.. i haven't married yet, guys.. neither planning to marry nearly.. :) I was just went back home after lecture and turn my TV on, tune into star movie and then watch a movie entitled "Our Family Wedding". So, it's about a movie that I watched and not about me..

       This movie pretty much tells about a newly engaged couple,Lucia and Marcus, one is Mexican other is African and they're planning to get married. As you may guess, their family tradition and the cultural thingie are the cause of problems in this story.

However, the two main lessons that I learned from this movie are First. There is truth to the saying - that when you marry someone, you marry their entire family. Second. No matter how mad you make them, your parents they will always love you.

      The second lesson was actually found in the scene when Lucia's Dad talk to her.. Her Dad supposed to be mad at her for one problem but I love what her Dad said that "Even when I'm mad at you, I will always love you" the speech was thereabout. Well, I sorta get a revelation when I heard the response of Lucia's Dad.. It was like our Heavenly Father, no matter how bad we have been, He will always love us. For His love is unconditional. Yeahh.. We supposed to be thankful for having a God, a Big Awesome God who is also our great great Father and Saviour..
Hope you also learn something from this post.. :)

-claya

October Bliss

Well, This October was such a blissful month. It started with my sibling sister Melinda's birthday (Oct,1) then my brother Fiby's birthday (Oct,2) then my auntie Like's birthday (Oct, 3), my sister Octa (Oct 4), and so many more to mention.. And it pretty much went as I declared it to be when I prayed.. that this month gone full of blessing..

Let me tell you some stories of how God answers my prayers and bless me this month..

First, it was a random request that I had.. One evening, I was so hungry and speak to myself as if my Mom n Dad would be back home with some food.. and THEY DID.. they did come home with a delicious Fried Noodles. *prayer answered*

Second, last Tuesday.. I have 2 different subjects in a row taught by the same lecturer Mrs.Bachmid.. In the first subject started 9.20 she didn't come.. and we all assumed that she already gone somewhere out of town as she told us last week about her plan..and apparently she's not. Her departure will be next week and not this week and we're going to have mid-term exam that day.. and you know what's happened?? I knew about that news while I was sitting in cinema with Shisy and Angel watching Pirates of Carribean for about 20 minutes.. It was causing a big dilemma and quandary whether I should go back to campus or continue watching.. regarding the length of time needed if I go back to campus, I'm afraid that I couldn't make it.. and then I pray that God would be so kind letting me have supplementary exam when Mrs.Bachmid back from her destination.. Fyi, none of my friends have ever experienced having supplementary exam to Mrs. Bachmid before.. but miracles happened... She told the class that she's waiting for those who haven't take this exam to join it the next two week as she arrived home.. Isn't God great?? *another prayer answered*

Third, It was quite funny to tell about this next answered prayer.. one afternoon, I was watching "Secret Garden" (Korean Movie) with Mom and Dei.. Twas getting bored and unlikely to see the 2 main characters' souls being exchanged.. I was quite absurd to see man acting like woman and conversely.. that's why I say aloud.. "O c'mon, let their souls being exchanged again.." and you know, after I said that, the plot happened according to what I did said.. Sounds silly, huh?? Maybe you also hv experienced that..but, i somehow amazed how can this simple thing happened.. Almost all that comes out from my mouth, happened as I said..
      The words of believers have power, indeed! Even about waking up in the morning, whenever I asked God to wake me up in this certain time, He always faithfully answered my prayer by waking me up that precise time.. God is so trustworthy. Anw, I also have another story.. that just happened about 17 hours ago.. Well, yesterday in Final PPI 2011 I'm tweeting that I like the answer of Puteri Sumut, Sabrina in Big 5 QA session.. but I didn't mention her bcuz I didn't follow her on twitter but surprisingly she somehow found my tweet and reply 'thanks' to me.. How come?? haha..

      In conclusion,  knowing how powerful our mouth can be.. let us speak good things about ourselves, and people around us and let us not use our mouth judging others or cursing them or even make rumors about others.. One more thing, I've learned that God answered our prayers even before we literally pray.. He already knows what's inside our heart & mind.. and feel free to submit your request and plea to God,. as long as we keep doing what's good and pleasing God, there's no reason for God not to answer our prayer.. Instead, He's the God who always wants to hear our prayer and answer it according to His Master plan for our life..

Be blessed,
Claya ★

I CAN COOK

      It may sounds silly that as a woman I never cook something other than Nasi Goreng (Fried Rice) or Mie Instant (instant noodle) and Telur dadar / mata sapi (Fried egg) until my teenage years.. It's so rare for me to be in the kitchen. But, it was quite a fast development for me myself that I start to cook something like Rendang (beef cooked with coconut milk - Indonesian recipe), Macaroni, and Japanese tofu in my age of 19.. Even that still needs perfection and bla bla bla..
 
    And now as I turned 20 I start to cook Spaghetti and also invent a new scrumptious food I named "Breadchetti".. Sounds professional, huh?? I named it so because it consist of ingredients like crusty bread, cheese, and spaghetti sauce.. I wonder if you guys can taste it someday and drop any comments.. haha
However, I promise to learn how to cook well.. even not aiming to be a professional chef but at least I could cook something palatable and luscious for my future family.. :)

Engkau Alasan S'lama Kuhidup

This Indonesia song is somehow sooo touching..

The first time I listen to it is from the radio and the second time

is when I'm about to be a singer in our church's morning service.

The worship leader was sister Octa Rory at that time..

and as I sing this song on stage,

I remember I wasn't able to contain my tears.. 

This is not only because I know the story behind this song..

-- a wonderful testimony from Jacquelline Cellose who has been healed

by God from a terrible and very rare disease (I don't know for sure) 

but there's something so beautiful about this song..

I can't explain what..

I want to sing it on my birthday party, too bad there's no birthday party this year..

So, I better post this song as my written testimony.. :) 

 

Ku hidup kar'na anug'rah-Mu..

Tiada satupun dapat kubanggakan..

Semua karena cinta-Mu 

Ini hidupku, pimpin jalanku..

Kasih-Mu mengubah hidupku

Kau memilihku, s'lamatkan hidupku

Semua karena cinta-Mu

Ini hidupku, pimpin jalanku

Yesus pegang erat tanganku,

Ku tak dapat hidup di luar kasih-Mu

Bapa, jangan tinggalkan aku

Engkau alasan s'lama kuhidup

by: Jaquellyn Cellose

Quotes about AGE & GROW

As I turned 20.. I look for some quotes about age and grow and these are some great quotes I found.. 

• We don't stop playing because we grow old. We grow old because we stop playing! Rev.Run Wisdom (via twitter)
• As I grow older, I pay less attention to what men say. I just watch what they do. -Andrew Carnegie
• “What is the point of being alive if you don’t at least try to do something REMARKABLE?” — John Green
• “Do you know what you are doing now? You are building your memories, so make them good ones.”  -Ravi Zacharias
• “As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed as ignorant as you were at twenty-two, you’d always be twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It’s growth. It’s more than the negative that you’re going to die, it’s the positive that you understand you’re going to die, and that you live a better life because of it.” —Mitch Albom 
•  “An easy life doesn’t teach us anything. In the end it’s the learning that matters: what we’ve learned and how we’ve grown.” —Richard Bach

Running Back to You

will post some more lyrics of songs that I'm keen on listening..
This one is Great, guys!
Take time to listen or at least read the lyric.. :) 
 
Running Back to You

How can you forgive me
when I’ve often gone astray
how can You think of me
when I do things my way

Turning my back from You
the One who loved me first
having my own desires
renewing worldly thirst

You told me You loved me
and I should make up my mind
You tell me come back now
But I keep wasting time

Feeling so very weak
You say I can be strong
I feel I’ve gone too far
You tell me to come home

You love me still
and I know this is real.

And I am running back to You
I see You’re standing there for me
Your arms are open wide
and I don’t have to cry no more
You’re standing there for me
and I am running back to You
Why did I go away
When I know I am no good
when I’m on my own

You told me you could keep me
but I’ve turned it away
I’ve failed you so much now
I don’t know what to say

Using the same excuse
That I am just a man
You tell me You’ve been there
and show your nailed, scarred hands
So I can see
Now I know I am free

I have taken advantage of Your love & grace
Forgive me Lord and take me home
Take me home

I’m running to you Jesus
Please take me home
See, I’ve been in this wrong way too long
and I can’t do right anymore
I’m tired of pain
and I don’t like fear
but Lord I want to be more sincere

I never should have left Your side
return me to Your guiding light
You’re standing there for me
and I’m running back to you

-Ruben Studdard

I Need You Now (Smokie Norful)

This song is pretty much touching for me..
Got no reason not to post it on my blog..
Read the lyric or see the video and be blessed guys! :)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oJpWjv7UGqE 

Not a second
Or another minute
Not an hour
Or another day

But at this moment with my arms outstretched
I need you to make a way
As you’ve done so many times before
Through a window or an open door

I stretch my hands to you
Come rescue me
I need you…
Right away

I need you now
I need you now
I need you now
I need you now

Not another second
Or another minute
Not another hour of another day
But Lord I need you right away

If I never needed you before
To show up and restore
All of the faith that I let slip
While I was yet searching the world for more

The true best friend I have indeed
You’re my best friend I know indeed
I stretch my hands to thee
Come rescue me
I need you right away

The agony of being alone
The fear of doing things on my own
The test and trials that come to make me strong
The feelings of guilt, hurt, shame, and defeat
The way the trials that beat upon me
But to know Lord that in you I’ve got victory

I need you now, Lord, I need you now (Oh, wo, wo)
I need you right now, right now, right now
I need you now

Oh not another second
Not another minute, Lord
Can’t wait another day (oh…)
Oh Lord, please make a way
Oh Lord, Oh Lord, Mmmmm, Yeah

The Potter's Hand

Simply reminded of this beautiful song "The Potter's Hand" (by Darlene Zschech) and decided to put it on my blog..
The chorus of this song recently echoing in my mind and soul.. Like sooo muuuch in my life, I want Jesus to mold me, use me, fill me.. If my life wasn't in His hands, I might not be as I am today.. 
Well, I am forever grateful to be chosen as His children and  still want Him to guide me, lead me, walk with me.. yeah.. I give my life to the Potter's hand..

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour I know for sure, all of my days are held in your hands,

crafted into your perfect plan 

You gently call me into your presence guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life through Your eyes

I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart, I know you're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord I pray

Chorus: Take me, Mould me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand

Psalm 56:4-5

Mazmur 56:4-5 

Waktu aku takut, aku ini percaya kepada-Mu; kepada Allah, yang firman-Nya kupuji, kepada Allah aku percaya, aku tidak takut. Apakah yang dapat dilakukan manusia terhadap aku? 

GRATITUDE

      It is true that the word of God is like a double-edged sword. I remember, last Sunday, I preached the A Class kids (the kids under 6 yo) at Sunday School about how necessary to say "Thank You" anytime u receive help and "I'm sorry" when you've done mistake. In fact, this week I encounter the reality that I'm not able to always say those words, I mean to say it sincerely.

As yesterday, for instance, I just upgraded my Blackberry's OS. I told the shopkeeper to back-up my contact before and he did say he could but after that I found that I lost all my 200+ messenger contacts PLUS my phone contacts. He also didn't at least download fb and twitter application and asked me to download it myself; I lost all my emoticons :( ; the display of my upgraded BB was not satisfying; and for that kinda service, He almost even asked me to pay a hundred thousand (2x more than the normal price) for that.. It was so disappointing and the situation tend to make me grumble and not to say thanks to the shopkeeper. However, I did say thanks, even not with a proper facial expression. well, I just couldn't hide my disappointment. and the 'thanks' wasn't sincerely came out from my mouth..

     In my way back home, as I contemplate, I feel like I'm lacking of gratitude. Regarding, today, I had a free lunch with Mom, free drink, free transport and My Mom has just bought a new gorgeous notebook I dream of having, and other tons of things to be grateful for.. but instead f saying thank You to God for His uncountable blessings, my focus was distracted and I almost dispute for the rest of the day bcoz of this 'lil' prob.

     And then this thing came to my thought, "Should these sorta small probs still be an issue for Claudia Suwuh to grumble about?" Well, I long for a new level. Really. I don't wanna deal with these kinda small problem anymore and letting it ruin my joy and my day. I should have been more mature in my age of 20 (soon will be). Besides,There are thousands of people out there are facing more intriguing and complicated problem than I do but they still can have gratitude. So, Why can't I?

     At the end of the day, Isn't it God that we should please?? As in Psalm, God is pleased not only with our burnt offering but also with the offering of our heart. Our heart is matter to God. Yeah.. It's all about Him. It's all about Jesus, I'm only an instrument for His praise.. If I could overcome this such problem, I want the glory to be His and HIS alone.. 

Readers, let's have more gratitude.. If we are what we are today, it's not because of our strength and might, It's a gift from Him..If you're able to breathe, to walk, to think, to eat.. twas His grace. Be grateful! \(ﾟ∀ﾟ)/ ♪

Prayer: God, teach me more and more.. I wanna learn from You.. I wanna be like You
Make me, mold me, shape me, use me God.. Amen

My twinnie sister (lol)

A sister of mine from Belgium just recommended me Clara C's video..
She said my face was sorta similar with this girl and my name is similar with hers too..
As i see her video, I was quite taken back.. not bcuz of d similarity of our face
but bcuz of incredible talent she has..

Anw, do you guys really think we're somehow similar?? (-.-)a

You guys, need to check out this video..
http://www.youtube.com/user/ClaraCMusic
http://www.facebook.com/ClaraCMusic 

Every experience God gives us. Every person He puts into our lives, is the perfect preparation for a future only He can see. - Corrie ten Boom

11/9

It's been almost two years that I never write in this blog due to my forgetfulness of the password.. :P
Well today, as I start to write again.. I do want to write something about 11/9..
Yeah, as we all know that today is not just an ordinary day for Americans and maybe the world population..
A decade ago, an unforgettable accident or more better to be said deadly 'attack' happened in WTC. However, today is a memorial day not only for 11/9 attack but also is the six-month anniversary of the earthquake and tsunami in Japan. It was quite coincidental that today, something appalling also happen in Ambon, Indonesia yeah.. a clash between two groups because of the death of a pedicab driver.

I start to think of a lesson that I could learn today, and I kinda startled to read a speech of President Obama in the memorial service last year..

The perpetrators of this evil act didn’t simply attack America; they attacked the very idea of America itself -- all that we stand for and represent in the world. And so the highest honor we can pay those we lost, indeed our greatest weapon in this ongoing war, is to do what our adversaries fear the most -- to stay true to who we are, as Americans; to renew our sense of common purpose; to say that we define the character of our country, and we will not let the acts of some small band of murderers who slaughter the innocent and cower in caves distort who we are.

They doubted our will, but as Americans we persevere. Today, in Afghanistan and beyond, we have gone on the offensive and struck major blows against al Qaeda and its allies. We will do what is necessary to protect our country, and we honor all those who serve to keep us safe.

They may seek to strike fear in us, but they are no match for our resilience. We do not succumb to fear, nor will we squander the optimism that has always defined us as a people. On a day when others sought to destroy, we have chosen to build, with a National Day of Service and Remembrance that summons the inherent goodness of the American people.

They may seek to exploit our freedoms, but we will not sacrifice the liberties we cherish or hunker down behind walls of suspicion and mistrust. They may wish to drive us apart, but we will not give in to their hatred and prejudice. For Scripture teaches us to “get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.”

They may seek to spark conflict between different faiths, but as Americans we are not -- and never will be -- at war with Islam. It was not a religion that attacked us that September day -- it was al Qaeda, a sorry band of men which perverts religion. And just as we condemn intolerance and extremism abroad, so will we stay true to our traditions here at home as a diverse and tolerant nation. We champion the rights of every American, including the right to worship as one chooses -- as service members and civilians from many faiths do just steps from here, at the very spot where the terrorists struck this building.

Those who attacked us sought to demoralize us, divide us, to deprive us of the very unity, the very ideals, that make America America -- those qualities that have made us a beacon of freedom and hope to billions around the world. Today we declare once more we will never hand them that victory. As Americans, we will keep alive the virtues and values that make us who we are and who we must always be.

For our cause is just. Our spirit is strong. Our resolve is unwavering. Like generations before us, let us come together today and all days to affirm certain inalienable rights, to affirm life and liberty and the pursuit of happiness. On this day and the days to come, we choose to stay true to our best selves -- as one nation, under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.

 That's speech was so moving.. Besides, my heart leaps in greater joy as I know that in the National Remembrance Day this year Obama reads through Psalm 46:

 ¹ God is our refuge and strength,
   an ever-present help in trouble.
² Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
   and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
³ though its waters roar and foam
   and the mountains quake with their surging.
 ⁴ There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
   the holy place where the Most High dwells.
⁵ God is within her, she will not fall;
   God will help her at break of day.
⁶ Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
   he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
 ⁷ The LORD Almighty is with us;
   the God of Jacob is our fortress.
 ⁸ Come and see what the LORD has done,
   the desolations he has brought on the earth.
⁹ He makes wars cease
   to the ends of the earth.
He breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
   he burns the shields with fire. 
¹⁰ He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
   I will be exalted among the nations,
   I will be exalted in the earth.”
 ¹¹ The LORD Almighty is with us;
   the God of Jacob is our fortress.

Finally, May God bless those who carries in their hearts a memory of their loved ones. May God continue to bless United States of America as the whole world..  ❤